I, of course, immediately failed to write a journal entry every week. I’m not sure why I’m even surprised. I slept for almost 16 hours yesterday and still feel this tired; I don’t know what’s going on with me these days. I’ve been doing Uber on Friday/Saturday after clocking out of my regular job, and doing that for an additional 5-6 hours. My laptop now runs Prowlarr, qBittorrent WebUI, and SyncThing on top of the stuff it was already running. I now also just run latest Linux Mint Cinnamon Edition on both my desktop and laptop to keep things simpler…. Read moreExhaustion


I’ve decided that I’m going to at least attempt to write one of these journal entries every week. If nothing else but as a splinter of my attempt at a mind map. Not much of importance has happened in meatspace. The work week in particular has been very slow. Given that it’s now mid-April, this is very concerning. I will start looking for alternative employment should the situation not change by mid-May. I’ve been putting a little work into backing things up. It seems that there is no reason not to use google’s storage since it’s on offer. OneDrive still… Read moreUnderstatement


It’s almost strange how empty I feel right now. A strong sense of listlessness, perhaps even apathy? I don’t know how this could have happened. Many things have happened since my last entry. I made it out of the situation I was in before. It took me literally leaving in the dead of night (2023-01-08 ~11pm to ~1am), going back to my previous living situation. While not ideal, was much better than the situation I found myself in. The “job” was essentially vaporware. While it did exist, it relied on the whims of a racist, ageist boomer with no ability… Read moreListlessness


I don’t know how I’m going to make it.I have completely exhausted my savings and available liquidity.Thanksgiving is less than a week away. Rent is due after that.Work has been so slow I don’t know how I’m going to pay ANY of my bills.I also have to have new car insurance by December 5, which is sure to be another several hundred dollars. I don’t think I’m going to make it. I’ve been drained dry and those greedy fucks that call themselves family want more more more more more. I cannot survive on making $25 a day from driving and… Read moreDespair

Caffeine and Addiction

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been addicted to caffeine. When I was a child, nothing could compare to the sweet sweet taste of a cold Pepsi on a hot day, or a cold day, or any other day for that matter. I wasn’t ever allowed to have too much at once, of course, but I would do a lot of things to get my hands on some soda. Fast forward to today. I wake up, go to work, then come home and sit on the computer for most of the day, excluding the bare necessities of each… Read moreCaffeine and Addiction

Notepad Entry #8 (Page 37)

Much time has passed The last page was written when I was 25 or even younger… I’m almost 31 now. Many things have come to pass that I regret. I most regret my unusual disinterest in gaming these days. I simply don’t have the time anymore. Even so, I’ve purchased a 2DS with the hopes of getting back into gaming instead of just playing p2w garbage all the time. Here’s hoping.

Just another day…

After having WriteFreely recommended to me by somebody on the fediverse, I decided that it might be in my best interests to check it out. I may have a wordpress but it’s not like I’m married to the platform. All I’ve really done is configure a theme that I like, after all. I didn’t really have anything in mind to blog about today, so I guess I’ll just rant about stuff. It took me all of about 2 hours to figure out why my steam wouldn’t launch today. As it turns out, the nvidia graphics driver didn’t install 100% correctly… Read moreJust another day…

Personal Update June 2019 pt1

I’ve been feeling like I needed to write some kind of article for a while now, but I couldn’t decide what to write, so I’m going to just write whatever comes to mind. I started playing NationStates recently. It’s a pretty old roleplay community formed around a lite-politics simulator game. A lot of the political issues you face are at least a little thought-provoking; it gave me flashbacks to Democracy 3 to be quite honest. Time will tell whether I stick with this one. If you’d like to look me up, I can be found here: www.nationstates.net/nation=-brockton_bay- I’ve also made… Read morePersonal Update June 2019 pt1

Blog D3

Started re-reading Kenichi yesterday, at chapter 318 of 624 released. feedly is acting up and not letting me read my saved feeds while offline. Found something new to check out, Offline Explorer Pro, which should allow me to maintain an offline copy of Mafia threads of interest. I want to play Go again. My friends want to run amateur tournies for Smash Bros & Magic: The Gathering soon. I’ll probably end up doing most of the tournament design myself, since nobody heres knows about anything more complicated than double elimination. Having more than one console available would be an enormous… Read moreBlog D3